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Hibernation Failed

I received an expected-but-i-am-afraid-slash-thrilled-to-answer long distance phone call early this morning. Early, as in early. 3 o’clock in the morning. Er. * Guys, I told you to be fair. I bet you all know our time difference, ayt? *

Expected because I’m so sure Shobe read my last post and she’ll tell J about this. Afraid because I am sooo sure that they will insist again (for more than a hundred times) about the vacation they are offering. Thrilled because I know almost all of my problems will be handled ..using their less word (whatever it means, it’s just us who understand it).

The call lasted for more than an hour. But it feels like just a few minutes. Hours is not enough to talk about these crazy thoughts in my (and their) mind. The last words J uttered are still spinning in my head now.

Be well, ok? Or else, I will go back there in the Philippines and I’ll prove to you that my offer is still available.

So, I need to be OK so that their offer will be forfieted. Well, I am ok. Really, I am ok. Super duper ok. Er. V, you are a terrible liar.

But I think they are right. Why would I let myself suffer? Why would I make myself so miserable by locking myself in my not-so-organize room? Why would I let my eyes sore by crying all day and all night long? Why would I let my problems turn me down? If I can stand up and let everyone know that I am VANNY.

No one can stop that. No one can stop ME from being ME. Even those harsh words, even those big problems, even those people who turn me down. Even those people who I thought will not loose their grip on me. Even Los Angeles, California. Haha. Just kiddin’ guys. *wink*

I almost forgot that I have the greatest non-biological family. Thanks so much people. For always being there. You are the best gift I ever had. And forever I will have. =)

If I have lots of problems, it doesn’t mean I will be down. If I say I will not continue, it doesn’t mean that I will stop. If I say that I am tired, it doesn’t mean that I will rest. And lastly if I say I am weak, it doesn’t mean that I am not strong. I guess I am still the same. The simple complex simple(???) yet complicated girl.

And if I say I won’t go with all of you, it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to. It’s just that I am not yet ready to leave this polluted town. Haha. And you know that I can”t leave him.. them. Love you all guys! =)

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